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What happens when you don't pay your bills? I've never not paid anything before, but I'm so broke right now, I don't really have any option. I just don't have the money. Period.
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Not sure how many of you are still around... but for those who are and care, here's an update.

It's the best of times and the worst of times...

Basically, in three weeks, I have no where to live. My lease is up at the end of July and my roommate's fiance got a job in Colorado, so they are moving there. I still don't have a job. I have $400 left of my severance. I am getting unemployment, but after taxes, it's only about $1000 a month. My health insurance alone is $500 and I HAVE to have health insurance with my autoimmune disease. If I let it drop, I'll never be able to get coverage again. Even if I get a job, it's a pre-existing condition, so I won't have coverage for that for a year, so basically not continuing health coverage is absolutely not an option. Right, so with my other bills, like car insurance, cell phone and basic food, I have like $200 a month to find someone where to live. Lol. Literally impossible. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have people that I could stay with of course, but it's really hard to ask someone if you and your two dogs can crash on their couch or in the guestroom.

But, all hope is not lost. I have an awesome boyfriend. Like a real life for real boyfriend. We started dating in mid-march and have pretty much been inseparable since. It's going great. He's everything I wanted. Accepts my many flaws. He's geeky (which is a good thing for me), adorable, smart, funny, etc. We like to do the same stuff. Like the same foods. Laugh all the time. Have good sex. He loves my dogs. I love his cats. And he's in really good financial shape, unlike myself. So basically, if I have to, I can move in with him, but he has a small one bedroom apartment and the two of us, the two dogs and two cats would be a bit of a crowd. Plus, moving in together would be a bit much for four months into a relationship. Plus, I don't want to make a decision like living together based on finances. And, am also hesitate to be financially dependent on a man again. So... I'm hoping not to have to move in with him, but it's not because I don't want to spend every waking moment with him, because I do.

But I do have some positive stuff going on other than Jon. I am in the process of getting my real estate license. Next week is the last week of class, then I have to pass the exam the week after that and then I'm good to go. I know what you're thinking. That this is a terrible time to go into real estate. BUT here's my thinking. The market will come back and there are a lot less agents out there than there was before so there will be less competition. Also, I'm not trying to get rich here. I'm trying to make a living and my expenses are low. Plus, it's a career that I think will offer me the lifestyle that I want long-term. And I'm not talking about money. I can make my own schedule. Be my own boss. Work harder to earn more. Work less hard and not make as much. Take any potential kids to school every morning. Not be stuck in an office all day.

Plus, I've been talking to a local broker. I don't want to say his name for googling purposes, but he's a really well known local broker who focuses on hip intown areas and very successful. I actually answered an ad that he had for a marketing assistant and we met and just really clicked. He hired me to write some web content for him, which I have been doing... I got one paycheck from him and I'm expecting another next week (which will help with my financial situaiton). But, in addition to the immediate money, he's also agreed to work with me after I get my license, which means that he will give me buyer leads once I'm licensed so that should help me get some cash flow started. He is also helping me with my branding, marketing and just general mentoring in the real estate industry.

So... I'll update again in a couple of weeks from my cardboard box under a bridge. Hope ya'll are all doing well.
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I am once again without a job. Totally unexpected and not my fault. It was a funding issue. I got severance and will likely get unemployment so I'm okay for a while. I'm also getting a decent tax return.

The guy that I posted about before... We went out Friday night and I'm pretty sure that will be our last date. We didn't have a fight or anything. He's a good guy. It's just not exactly right. We've been talking less and less and it's just kind of fizzled out. I'm lonely, but I'm okay. I feel like I'm getting closer to a great relationship and I can't settle for anything less, right?

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I'm dating someone. He's quirky and funny, but doesn't laugh. Often. He still buys CDs and newspapers because he likes the objects. He buys original art from his friends and speaks sign language to his deaf dog. He volunteers to help people wrongly convicted of a crime, makes his bed every morning and cooks me dinner, taking into consideration all my ridiculous food weirdness, served on Fiestaware. He wears vintage suits and awkwardly rubs my back when he thinks I'm sad, even though I'm not sad.

We're not official and probably won't be any time soon. We're moving real slow on this one. But, so far, it's simple and easy.

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I have tuberculosis.
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I'm still really reluctant to talk about my love life on here because I feel kind of guilty about some things. Like, I still have that married person mindset, where I feel like if I talk about dating, people are going to see me as a cheater, but since my husband is married to someone else, I guess that means that I'm free to date or have sex with anyone I want.
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Paul and I got divorced last Thursday. I found out yesterday via a mass email that he got married to someone else on Friday. He managed to take the divorce that we were handling with dignity and class and turn it into an episode of Jerry Springer.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. It's insulting to me to be told in such a fashion and insulting to the institution of marriage in general that he uses it as a weapon, but it's him, not me. I continue to hold out for real love and prefer to be alone rather than settle.

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Divorce is final tomorrow. :(
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Our divorce will be final May 27th. Two weeks from Thursday.

I feel sort of..... weird.

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I don't have a computer anymore so it's really hard for me to keep up with lj. Sorry friends. Please bare with me.
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